I’m on the countdown to the first blood test to see if the cancer was all removed and had not decided to take a little wander to other locales.  Unfortunately as the days countdown the tension mounts up, I realised this morning coming to work that I’m terrified that it will be a bad result and I’ll have to have chemo-therapy.  Currently I cannot even confirm a ski-ing holiday in two weeks time.  I’m really starting to resent life having to be put on hold like this.  Okay some would say just book it, do it, don’t let it rule your life.  I’ll take a wild guess and say those would people who haven’t had cancer.  

Its not the cost of possibly having to cancel, its letting people down who are also going on the trip.  Anyway one component of my life that has resumed in full force.  Meetings so gotta go.